Owen is our last baby. He turned one on November 7th. I never thought I would say this....but I feel a little sad that he is our last. That just means no more babies for me. When I was pregnant with him I knew he would be our last and I was okay with that. I suppose every women goes through a little bit of mourning when she decides not to have anymore babies but I thought it wouldn't matter to me. The past year has not been easy & I remember saying as long as I survive the first year I will be okay...but now I miss the first year. Owen was not an easy baby but I miss the snuggles, the fact that he couldn't move (now he doesn't stop), the tiny little human clothes and so much more. God has blessed us with three beautiful children who make me laugh daily. Yes, even on the really crappy days I laugh at least once at something they have done or said. I would not trade this life for the world. In my women's Bible study today we talked about our purpose...our gift...and right now these three kids are mine. I may not find that I'm gifted in the Mothering department from day to day but it is my purpose for now and I am glad he gave me the gift of motherhood.
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